In another time.

Two years is how long you left us.  And every time I close my eyes, I wish I will see you when I open them.  Come back, even as a shadow, even as a dream.  Miss you.

In another time, in a happier place, we'll meet again.

My beloved #chocolateongang

It has been almost 2 years but mummy is still struggling to think and talk about you in the past tense.  Your death, it still doesn't make sense.

I wish I could give you a hug, touch your soft ears and tell you how much we miss and love you. 

Happy 15th, my good good girl.  My beloved #chocolateongang

I miss you like hell.

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which i find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night.  I miss you like hell.

~ Edna St. Vincent Millay

Happy 14th Birthday, my love.

Dagger of pain.

Chocolate, my good good girl.  Mummy misses you a lot a lot.  I hope there will come a time when i can picture you in my mind, see photos and videos of you and have memories of you, when i will not feel a dagger of pain.  

I dreamed of you recently, we were at the dog run and you were zooming around as usual.  We were happy. 

Miss you.

Pretend everything is alright but our heart silently screams in pain.  Mummy and daddy misses you, a lot, a lot...

Five months

Mummy thought of you today but that is nothing new.  I thought of you yesterday and days before that too.  I think of you in silence as i often call out your name.  All I have now are memories and your picture in a frame.

It's five months today.

Miss you everyday.

Grief is still strong, mummy is still heartbroken.  I sniff your bed, your snood, your harnesses and cry most days, but mostly it is with happy memories, my pretty pretty girl.  I miss you everyday.

Everywhere seems empty, without you.